Do you enjoy feeling embarrassed ?

[Aberman]

Because I wear predominantly smaller bikini type swimming gear I’m always wearing the smallest thing in the pool . ( at least amongst the guys ) For me that’s part of the experience and a pleasurable one . It’s trying to get that balance between acceptable but slightly skimpy which I find interesting . And it changes with the culture and the environment . So I do take a little pleasure in n just pushing myself . This afternoon for example I’m going swimming in my hotel pool in my new Joe Snyder dazzling blue bikini . I bought the small to get an extra tight fit and really before it is stretched to fit it looks tiny lying 🤥 n the bench in the changing room .
So my question is … do you feel that part of the attraction Of bikini / speedo wearing is that slight sense of embarrassment or do you wish you didn’t feel that at all ?