[sebbie]

Most guys probably have determined whether there is “stuff” like this that sends “signals” to their brains and bodies of this sort at a very early age, often right at puberty or just after. Whatever it is that “causes” this to happen is difficult if not impossible to control. Worse, for the post-puberty male, all of this somehow gets messed together with understanding the basics of how post-puberty sexual feelings work, which makes these things even more complicated to deal with. Another aspect of all of this has to do with what this all might or might not have to do with determining one’s sexual orientation, straight, gay or somewhere in between.

For a typical 14-year old, a basic question is how to deal with sexual feelings that are linked to inanimate objects such as items of clothing listed in the previous chapter. The poor guy is stuck probably thinking that he is somehow abnormal and weird if this is happening to him. If one starts reading the on line literature related to this, the entire subject is probably presented as a fetish, perhaps along with stuff related to a sexual fascination with other stuff such as women’s clothing, and this, in turn gets messed together with men who get turned on sexually by wearing female clothing as in transvestite.

But this is all definitely male clothing items: compression gear, straps swim briefs etc. The guys who wear this stuff generally are not aroused by wearing female clothing items. The guy starts to think that perhaps he is just going through some sort of a temporary “phase” which he will eventually either just outgrow as he gets older and starts to have adult-type partner sex feelings and turn ons. At least that is what the guy hopes. For goodness sakes, what do you do with this stuff once you get into a real adult-style relationship? Maybe once that happen, this other stuff will just go away, or so the guy fervently hopes.

Then there is a question as to how unique the guy believes he is. Do other guys my age have this exact same problem? This is a variation on the so-called locker room issue. What happens if I join the high school swim club and the coach insists I wear a swim brief? How do the other swim club members deal with this problem? Once again, am I unique in this regard? Maybe I will quickly get “used” to pulling on a tight fitting swim brief, strap or whatever, and its merely a matter of doing this frequently enough.

Then there is the problem that doing this stuff involving the gear is really fun to the point of being addictive. By the time a guy gets to be about 14, he has probably tried most of the plain ordinary methods of jerking off in the bathroom or under the covers by simply stroking and rubbing his penis. The slick-and snug clothing items introduces a whole new dimension to solo sex, and the guy realizes this all too well. Have the other guys my age figured this all out too? If not are they somehow “different” from me.

The guy typically then goes on a quiet effort to acquire the clothing items that he thinks will be the most sexually exciting to get into. This is tricky for a number of reasons. First, there are lots of subjects that guys feel open with their parents discussing, but this is definitely not one of these. But then how does one manufacture a plausible-sounding “excuse” for obtaining the item for goodness sakes?

Then there is the issue of making attempts to keep what you are interested in doing a secret from your peers of both sexes, but particularly from other males your age. Guys are really curious about what is happening to other guys their age and whether or not they are dealing with the same or similar issues, but this is not a topic appropriate for a conversation, in large measure because the guy bringing up the subject is likely to be labeled as a jerk-off, teased, bullied, or labeled as gay. Best to keep one’s mouth completely shut on the entire subject.

Joe and Bill are not 14 but 19, and have worked their respective ways through some of their inhibitions related to sexual turn-ons and procedures for jerking off. Further, they are now in college, and are able to figure out a way to buy the items they longed to own when they were 14 but could not find a way to do so earlier. That Joe and Bill are as open with each other with respect to what is going on in their respective heads and bodies is a rarity.

Tony and Donovan, the rowing club members at the gym, seem to have reached a level in this regard that Joe and Bill have not yet achieved. They are actively talking about what they are wearing and why it makes their gym workouts. Joe and Bill have not yet determined if Tony and Donovan are gay or not, let alone if they are gay partners. But they both certainly appear to be enjoying themselves immensely just wearing their gear and doing their gym exercises for the rowing team. They seem to have lost any inhibitions if they once had them.

Meanwhile, Dylan is watching all of this, quietly.


… To be continued